recently i just started a new job - in fact, i am sitting at borders right now with my work laptop trying to do some work. i can’t concentrate because this is the first weekend i’ve had to myself since i started 5 weeks ago and i am saddened by the fact that it’s already sunday and i have to go back tomorrow. after having some time to see my friends and talking to people, i’ve realized how terrible i am at juggling more than one thing in my life.
let’s take this job for instance, i am truly thankful and grateful that this job worked out. i’ve been realizing more and more that this job is starting to form characteristics of a job that i have always wanted. the problem is that, right now i’ve put this job ahead of everything else in my life. granted that i started at their busiest time of the year and i’ve just had to adapt to the long hours and cope with the stress, but concentrating all my energies on it has left everything else in my life in the dark. and although it’s all circumstantial but i’ve come to see patterns to my behavior. i am easily distracted and while i am able to excel in certain areas in my life, other parts of my life will suffer because of it. this goes for hobbies as well. i like blogging/journaling, taking photographs/using photoshop, reading, using different social networks, and watching tv shows (let’s just be honest) and i feel like all of those things have been sitting on the back burner, not just for these past 5 weeks but for an extended amount of time. and i’ve always found other things in front of nurturing my hobbies. i also think that hobbies are short-lived in my book because i am always trying my hand at different things to see if it’s my true calling. haha.
maybe balancing work/life = more sacrifice on my part. i don’t know. but i think this is the lesson i’m interested in learning this summer.
